Scared, Not Defeated.
I just have been going through some stuff in the past week. It hasn’t happened to me before and shouldn’t logically be happening either but the fact is that it is and I need to get checked up on it.
I had been having trouble sleeping for a few months but it wasn’t something that concerned me a lot but a few weeks back I started having nightmares and there were nights when I would wake up screaming and covered in sweat and that started worrying me a little. I tried to sleep in a more comfortable environment with the temperature at an ambient setting.
It got better for a while, until one day when I again woke up screaming from a nightmare and I could see someone right next to me on the bed. Their face covered in blood. The terrifying thing here is that I stay alone and I know it was a hallucination of sorts. It lasted for a while, micro-seconds maybe but it really scared me. I was scared of going to sleep again and hardly slept for the next two days.
I visited my psychiatrist about this and we have restored my night medicine to the old levels in hope that it gets better.
It did happen again once this week and I am trying to find the root cause of this because nothing has happened which would warrant this sort of reaction from me.
I’ve shared this with my family, my girlfriend and friends and everyone has been supportive. It’s nice to have support when struggling. Something I’ve learned over the years.
This may lead to a latent blog for a few days but I will get back to the old ways soon enough.
Knight of Steel.